Sidney Johnson Ellinor

my wonderful Dad passed away on the 19th march 2006 aged 80 from COPD he spent his last week of life in hospital, we had some really sad and some really treaured moments in that time, we watched deal or no deal almost everyday, me, diddy and dad had a great time playing cards we all laughed as he cheated at it again, no mercy he would shout lol,
he was a wonderul Father, Husband & Grandad he was all i could have ever asked for in a Dad he was mine, i miss him so much it hurts everyday,
he had 8 children 7 girls and 1 boy, michelle, georgie, angela, bobby, tony, vicky, me (tracy) Diddy. and he had 28 granchildren and loads of Great grandchildren, all of which loved him so much,
its going to be fathers day and his birthday soon (24th june) the first one's in 32 years i havent spent with him, we are having a family BBQ for his birthday everybody is coming so that should be lovely to have all the family around us again and celebrate the life of such a wonderful person,
i feel so priveledged to have had such a wonderful Father, as i know we all do. he is sadly missed by the whole family,
my Dad was a great person he was born in norfolk, cambridgeshire in 1925, he joined the navy when he was 16 and was in WW2, i am very proud of my Dad and everything he achieved in his life, he worked till he was about 70 as a gardener which he was really gifted at, and he loved it so much, I think he would of carried on doing it forever if he could off done.
My Dad was a very quiet man he never said much but he was always there with his card tricks and jokes, some of the worst jokes i remember were my Dads made up ones, haha, he loved playing darts when he was younger and he was a bingo king, he and my Mum even run a community bingo right till he passed away,
he was also into quiz shows and crosswords, he was always as bright as a button, if we ever needed anything added quick we would ask Dad, we would all be working out on paper and my Dad in his head would come up with the answer before we even came close, smart alec we used to call him!!
he was quite particular at times his hair had to brushed a certain way even till the end he made sure we all brushed it back,
his passion in life apart from my Mum was his fishing, he was a very keen fisherman and very good at it, my brother Tony and my partner Steve used to take him all the time, and he loved it!!! my brothers work mates organized a fishing competition in our Dads name, my partner came in 2nd place, they dont really go fishing anymore i think its to hard for them, especially Tony.
My Dad loved lots of things in his life but more than anything he loved my Mum, they stood by eachother through thick and thin, in love till the end! i feel so honoured to have a Mum and Dad so committed to eachother and to us children, i really couldnt have asked for anything more than what i got the best Mum and Dad in the world!!!


LYRICS TO DANCE WITH MY FATHER

Back when I was a child, before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high and dance with my mother and me and then
Spin me around 'til I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved
If I could get another chance, another walk, another dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
How I'd love, love, love
To dance with my father again
When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way, I would run from her to him
He'd make me laugh just to comfort me
Then finally make me do just what my mama said
Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me
If I could steal one final glance, one final step, one final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
'Cause I'd love, love, love
To dance with my father again
Sometimes I'd listen outside her door
And I'd hear how my mother cried for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me
I know I'm praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don't do it usually
But dear Lord she's dying
To dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dream



THIS IS A POEM I WROTE FOR MY DAD, IT WAS READ OUT AT HIS FUNERAL.

My Dad

Dad ive always loved you each and everyday
There is nothing you could of done to change that in anyway

I'm missing you already as we all are
I know you've gone to heaven, but your soul is not to far

One day we will meet again, in that happy place above
My heart is feeling heavy now, weighed down with love

We've got to part for now, it's time for you to fly
My heart is really aching now, my head is asking why?




A POEM FOR MY WONDERFUL DAD

If Tomorrow Never Comes

If I knew it would be the last time
that I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time,
I would spare an extra minute or two
to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would know I do.

If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.

For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything right.

There will always be another day
to say our "I love you's,"
and certainly there's another chance
to say our "Anything I can do's?"

But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget,
tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike.
And today may be the last chance you get
to hold your loved one tight.

So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day
that you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss,
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today,
whisper in their ear,
tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear.

Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
"please forgive me," "thank you," or "it's okay."
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today.




THIS IS FOR MY LITTLE SISTER DIDDY

Letter From Heaven

To my dearest family and friends, some things I'd like to say ...
but first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay.
I'm writing this from heaven. Here I dwell with God above.
Here, there's no more tears of sadness; here is just eternal love.

Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight.
Remember that I'm with you every morning, noon and night.
That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through,
God picked me up and hugged me and He said, "I welcome you.
It's good to have you back again; you were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family, they'll be here later on.
I need you here badly; you're part of my plan.
There's so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man."

God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do.
And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night, the day's chores put to flight.
God and I are closest to you ... in the middle of the night.

When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years,
because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry; it does relieve the pain.
Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.

I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned.
But if I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is over.
I'm closer to you now, than I ever was before.

There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb;
but together we can do it by taking one day at a time.
It was always my philosophy and I'd like it for you too ...
that as you give unto the world, the world will give to you.

If you can help somebody who's in sorrow and pain,
then you can say to God at night ... "My day was not in vain."
And now I am contented ... that my life has been worthwhile,
knowing as I passed along the way, I made somebody smile.

So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low,
just lend a hand to pick him up, as on your way you go.
When you're walking down the street, and you've got me on your mind;
I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.

And when it's time for you to go ... from that body to be free,
remember you're not going ... you're coming here to me.




He Only Takes the Best

God saw Dad was getting Tired
and a cure was not to be.
so he put his arms around him,
and whispered "Come with Me"

With tear filled eyes, we watched
Him suffer and fade away
although we loved him deeply,
We could not make him stay!

A Golden Heart stopped beating,
Hard working hands put to rest
God broke our hearts, to prove to us,
He only takes the best!



You never said you were leaving

You never said you were leaving,
You never said goodbye,
You were gone before I knew it,
And only god know's why.

A million times I needed you,
A million times i've cried,
If love alone could have saved you,
You never would have died.

In life I loved you dearly,
In death I love you still,
In my heart, you hold a place,
No one could ever fill.